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Hey there, I'm Rachel. I'm a 19 year old college student at Marshall University (although, my heart lies with Auburn University - GO TIGERS ♥). I'm majoring in Print Journalism, and double minoring in History and Creative Writing. I would like to think of myself as a smart cookie :) but, there are probably many who disagree. I'm emotional, and at times I can be out of control. I enjoy happiness, which might sound like a kind of "duh" thing, but until you've hit the bottom and clawed your way back to the top, you take happiness for granted. I'm simple, and complex. Everything I say usually contradicts itself, but that's because there's so much more to me than meets the eye. I'm difficult, and chances are I'll push your buttons, not on purpose, but because that's just my personality. I'm a princess. You're probably thinking "Oh no, not one of those." and no, I'm not one of those. I don't think I'm Paris Hilton, hell, I'd never want to be her. But I do expect to be treated like a princess, and if you treat me like one, I'll treat you like one. My friends saved my life. If it wasn't for them, I'd have ended it all, gave up, and broke a lot of people's hearts. I owe them my life, they're the greatest group of people alive. I believe in love. I believe in fate. I believe in karma. And I believe that I've been visited by all of these things. I've been blessed with a wonderful life, it's been a rough one, but I've been given the greatest support system on the planet to get me through it. However, there are times I get frustrated with things, and I'm negative. Because let's face it, life isn't all rainbows and sunshine. It can get dark, so dark you can't see. But, I refuse to live in the dark, and I'll fight like hell to make my way out of it. I'm a fighter. I don't give up on something I believe in, I'll fight like hell, and if I crash and burn, then I sweep off the soot, and keep on fighting. Some call it stubborn, I call it determined. Love me?







you taught me so much. that it was okay for me to be the person i wanted to be, and that being me wasn't wrong, and i was a beautiful person, no matter what. i meant what i said, when i told you that you were my lellow cause you brought the sun back into my life, and since you left it feels like i'm stuck in the rain. i'm so glad i got to spend the time with you that i did, and i cherish every moment we had together. i was going through some texts the other day, and i read something you said to me, and it was - "it doesn't matter whether you're ready or not, you play the hand you're dealt in life, and you go all in like you're holding 4 aces, even if your hand sucks." you always gave me the best advice, and i miss you everyday. i know that one day i'll see you again though. i wubbums you so much baby, you're still my buttbutt and no one will ever take that away from me. you were honestly one of the best friends i ever had, and i'm so thankful i had you in my life. i don't know how i'm surviving without you. everyday when i wake up and face the reality of what happened it knocks me on my butt, but i keep going. and i've kept going. i might collapse, but i'm trying to not let it break me. i know you mean for me to be more, and you want me to do more. i'll never forget you. you were my lover, my soul mate, and my best friend. and i miss you so much that it physically hurts. i love you babe. i'm trying to live, i'm trying to fight the urge to want to die every 5 seconds, and it's the hardest battle i've ever faced. i know now what you felt everyday, and at times, i really don't blame you for giving in. but i wish you hadn't, i wish you would have seen how much i need you here with me. everyone keeps telling me you're in a better place, away from the pain and hurt of life, but i guess they don't realize that the best place for you to be would to be right here beside of me again.♥ i miss the look of surrender in your eyes, the way your soft brown hair would fall. i miss the power of your kiss when we made love, but baby most of all i miss my friend. the one my heart & soul confided in, the one i felt safest with, the one who knew what to say to make me laugh again & let the light back in, i miss my friend. i miss those times, i miss those nights, i even miss the silly fights. the making up, the morning talks, && those late afternoon walks, i miss my friend ♥ ♥

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